WARNING!!! today’s post is going to consist of me whining about different things in my life and a lot of negativity. Haven’t been feeling very optimistic lately. I have been dealing with a serious case of mental block. It feels like I have zero control over it and it’s holding me back. I can’t find a way to complete a task and for some reason that’s driving me insane.
Today I had planned to go out and run a hard 8-mile run with a local running group. But instead I decided to listen to the little voice of negativity in my head and didn’t go hard. Don’t get me wrong, I did enjoyed the run. I got to talk to some of the guys in the group and had a pretty good time, but the problem is that my goal for the day was to run hard and see where I’m at. It felt like I wasted a workout.
I feel like running should be helping me release stress and with all the other positive things people say running helps with. But in reality that’s not the way things are going. Running sucks! and is making me feel miserable. I guess I forgot how hard I have to work and how long it takes to get faster. When I got back to it I came with the wrong mentality. I wasn’t expecting it to take me this long to gain some of the speed/endurance I once had. I’m not even close to being in shape and I’m already feeling burned out. I know, I know…I need to stop being a pussy about it. just do the work and wait for the results to come.
Next thing I want to whine about is music. I was super pumped to see Young the Giant for the first time ever. Well, I was disappointed with their performance. They were out of sync. At some points it sounded like they never played together before. Usually that happens when members are drunk/high or haven’t played together very much. That wasn’t their case, they didn’t look drunk or high and they have been playing together for awhile so I don’t know what happened there. Maybe I should consume way more alcohol next time… In a positive note I will be watching The Smashing Pumpkins tonight and I can’t wait for them to play some real music.
The next thing in the list: no other than this blog. I tried posting something the last two days and had no luck. I knew what I wanted to write about but couldn’t put it together. I know I don’t have to update it everyday but nothing pisses me off more than not being able to type what I have on mind. It seems like I have it all figured out and then POW!! its all gone.
Well, have an amazing weekend and don’t let my negativity rub off on you.